"angelic infirmary"

i have no idea why i am so weird.

"you can't help being helpless."

"talkings keep on saying things like..."

indeed, i try to be funny. to make people laugh, to the extent of looking stupid..
why do i crack jokes the most inappropriate moments, during calm seriousness.

crap.

"sugar sugar sugar is just something to put in coffee..."

i stutter. i have bad English diction when unprepared. i have suckish taste in jokes.
i am awkward. always. i have this monster ego.

no, i don't think i'm smart.
but i'll rule the world.

crap.

"i can ride my bike with no handlebars..."

i can't stand personal talks. i fear i'll say something wrong. slash the awkward pause. slash the coughing laugh.

i think i take advantage of people. i ask for a whole lot of favors, hoping they'd ask favors back.

"...just like lovers ought to (echo 'ought to')"

i don't know how to react to compliments. how to maintain cool.
i get easily pissed off.

i abuse 'i'

damn it.

"la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la..."

i'm writing this to apologize to everyone i offended. somewhat.

something like that.
i dunno.

maybe.